Date 75 - Su, Su, Pseudo-Date

K practically lives in my backyard. I can't actually recall the first time we met; I'm sure it was through some kind of social setting. At this point we've known each other for at least a couple of years.

I don't see all that much of him, but it's always nice when I do. K's the kind of guy who has everything you want from a character perspective. He's bankable in that department; a solid guy with real integrity. I have alot of respect for him. He's always offering compliments and there's always been a flirty vibe between us, but some small yet quintessential something eludes us.

It just so happened that I had a little meltdown at work before the Labor Day holiday and I needed to get away from it all. I needed a reality check. When K called that Saturday, I jumped at the chance to go out on his boat. Just the two of us.

I got directions to his place, packed up a little picnic lunch for us and drove over. After the grand tour (new house), he got our frosty adult beverages in order and proceeded to take care of everything. How awesome is that? Although I've spent alot of time on boats, I'm not used to having to put a boat in the water and the whole ramp situation is pretty intimidating to me. For those of you who are uninitiated, it's a major pain in the barnacle. I was very appreciative.

We cruised around for awhile. After laughing at some frat boys and "girls-about-to-go-wild" who were getting ticketed for being WAY over the maximum occupancy for their watercraft, we found a nice little nook of a cove to anchor in. We splashed around for awhile and hung out on styrofoam noodles.

It was most excellent and exactly the relaxation I needed until the perch started to nibble on us. That's just too freaky for me, so I opted to hang out in the front of the boat and read for awhile.

It was a perfect day spent together. Easy company. I wanted it to work. And somehow our date just wasn't quite a date. It was more than just going out with a friend, but less than a date. A pseudo-date.

I think part of it is that K knows that I'm not fully available for him.

That I couldn't...wouldn't just sign up to be his girlfriend. And besides, we're both more than fully occupied with our respective jobs at the moment. Even though we're going nowhere together, part of me will still be jealous when he does sign another girlfriend.